Stop being apologetic. I always feel I am a nobody, always felt that way but I am going to change that with God's help. STOP SAYING "I AM SORRY" UNNECCESSARILY. (I gave Gary-ude flatile thaazhathe V, the right to step over myself).

STOP COMPLAINING. People may sympathize with you momentarily but later they will laugh at you behind your back, and you will have only yourself to blame for having told everyone about your own problems. (Suneel, Pavan and Saurabh laugh at me behind my back bcos I told them the difficulties of my room).

Do not put yourself or your 'anything or anybody' down in the presence of anybody else. Since I said my room was a danky hole, Suneel, Saurabh and Pawan asked me "Howz ur dungeon?" If I'd said it was fine, they would'nt have dared mention it b4 me. It does'nt matter whether they mock or not behind my back. I gave up my own freedom by complaining. As Rajesh(downstairs) told me, I should've been pro-active, should've gone and researched the room b4 Gary gave it to me and I should've refused then. Afterwards, I need to live with my decision, not complain. It was my fault.

Stop undervalueing other people : I am not fit to judge someone else. eg. I said to myself "Ankit, Harita and many others are doing some stupid thing like QA, I have the chance but I will never allow myself to do something so simple." And now God has closed other doors so that I humble myself by learning and doing QA. I did not know what circumstances they were in, when they probably "had to choose" QA. All the same, in my humility, I have learnt never to pass judgment on others.

Ask yourself first "Where do I stand?": Today, I just saw the website of an IITian and his resume at http://www.public.iastate.edu/~lkrishna/acads_resume.htm. I was simply humbled and asked myself, as always, why I never really did anything substantial with my life when I always knew I had intellect and when I always wanted to. I always wanted to be at the top, by hook or crook, stating Xaviers', BK and then OK State. True, it always impresses people but the ultimate thing is still missing. I've discovered I just want people to be impressed, not really bring in the real 'me' outside. I've locked all my potential all these years. From today, like Ammachi said, "Wherever u are, try to shine and be the best u can." That is my motto from today, not just waste time with unneccessary pursuits, as has always been my doing."

I need to solve my problems myself . Ask for opinions from all, seek advice from everyone(friend or foe) but finally listen to your own hunches and heart. You are a child of God and He will guide you all the way along. You may commit some mistakes, everything may not be right at first instance but realize that you learn very important lessons all along the way and also remember that these failures are required for your future growth. (I feel following Daniel's advice to follow documentum and nirav(the path of least resistance) was a mistake all along).

I need to make my own decisions. Like currently, I can afford to go on (my own pace in the GC problem), doing what and when I feel is important, simply bcos I did'nt tell Appacha when I asked him for travel agency information. Otherwise, he would be unneccessarily worried and would keep enquiring, without peace or else simply tell me to do what he thinks is right, for the present. Don't worry, just take a decision and then stand by it. If you see that it is not the right way, just change your path. Mistakes happen to all.

Talk spudamait and in a business manner to all. Nobody appreciates a whiner and most of all, nobody wants you to be completely "sincere".

Learn to mind your own business. Appacha paranjathapole, kazhudhakaal pidikendi vannaalum, pidichu get ur joli done. If I had been wise enough, I would have been pro-active, I would've searched in OKC chuch or Dallas church a long time ago, found Wesley and found myself a job. But no, I was laid back. Thought I would get a car later, go to Dallas later, do all things later. I should've just followed Wesley and got into Nortel somehow, then I could show all the world that I was intelligent, only Wesley would feel otherwise and that did'nt really matter either. Stop being proud, try to mind ur own business and do it, even if someone burdens the donkey,u.